That can only be speculated on. Perhaps it provides some solace for you to know that he probably wished he had been killed there instead, ...14 years making friends with insects and being repeatedly toturted.. how many times can you break a man ? Personally that sort of thing does nothing for me, robbing someone of life based on what they might have done? I mean we're moving into 'thought crime' territory here.
He doesn't sound like a broken man does he?
And you can be jailed for life (in this country) for what you might have done or intended to do.